Where are you when I need you most?
You disappeared into the darkness
You left nothing behind but your memory
And for me to wait for you
Your heartfelt spirit is absent now
The smiles have wiped off the faces
Of the people you deserted here
You caused internal forever pain
I, the one you loved am crippled
Because of your sudden vacation
Your vacation that would last a lifetime
To a secret resort I will never know of
What made you decide to change your mind?
You made me feel I wasn't good enough for you
Maybe that is true, maybe it is not
But now, how will I ever know?
I have been trying to thrust your memory aside
So I could get on with my life
I have tried to love someone other than you
Yet, somehow you remain the main focus...
Why Did u Do That To Me...?
I Loved U So Much From the Very beggining,
I ever Cared Of Ur Heart.
You Knew That U were the Only reason That I Live,
But Was I the Game that U Played With ?
You Left Me,You Might Forgot Me,
Just because I Was in Love With You ?
You Break My heart In Just One Go.
Why Did u Do That To Me =(
I ever Cared Of Ur Heart.
You Knew That U were the Only reason That I Live,
But Was I the Game that U Played With ?
You Left Me,You Might Forgot Me,
Just because I Was in Love With You ?
You Break My heart In Just One Go.
Why Did u Do That To Me =(
Voice Of Love...
I Listen The Name Of Love, The Care Of Love,
But I Told You The New One The Voice Of Love,
Whenever I Heard Her Voice, I Felt SO Nice, So Warm,
The Every SinGel Cell Of My Body SparKing And FillIng
With SmiLe:] The Great Cause I DO, Great Thing I Learn,
To Listen You And Filled Joy In My SelF :)
I Admire I Have Two Sense To Hear Your Love :]
But I Told You The New One The Voice Of Love,
Whenever I Heard Her Voice, I Felt SO Nice, So Warm,
The Every SinGel Cell Of My Body SparKing And FillIng
With SmiLe:] The Great Cause I DO, Great Thing I Learn,
To Listen You And Filled Joy In My SelF :)
I Admire I Have Two Sense To Hear Your Love :]
I Am Yet To Be Loved By You...
The Affection in Your Smile,The Depth In Your Eyes..
Was never for me,I Never realized.
Worthy of nothing,still i wish to survive,
I look for The care,For You,I Strive..
Over Ruled by the Strong desire Of Being Priceless Like You,
Over Ruled by the Strong desire Of Being Priceless Like You,
I am Yet to Be Loved,To Be Loved By You...
Life Is An Endless Journey...
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Life is the journey we all will take,
An undulating adventure,
Make no mistake.
Through it all we take things for granted,
And then look back with resent.
At the worries that have planted,
And the problems they present.
Though life does have many highlights,
Some that we won't ever believe.
Moments that had always been in our sights,
And tell of how much we can achieve.
And while we all go through at different pace,
To reach our final goals.
We all end up finding our place,
Somewhere that we are whole...
An undulating adventure,
Make no mistake.
Through it all we take things for granted,
And then look back with resent.
At the worries that have planted,
And the problems they present.
Though life does have many highlights,
Some that we won't ever believe.
Moments that had always been in our sights,
And tell of how much we can achieve.
And while we all go through at different pace,
To reach our final goals.
We all end up finding our place,
Somewhere that we are whole...
Even When Shadow Betrays Me...
This fear I have.
This pain I have.
This feeling of terrible hate
Looming over me.
This animosity tormenting me
Devouring my very soul.
Wanting to take over.
It whispers in my ear
Filling me with dread.
Clutching my shoulders
Pushing me over the edge.
This Shadow was born
In Darkness
It lives in Darkness.
This Shadow I fear.
This Shadow is Me ...=(
This pain I have.
This feeling of terrible hate
Looming over me.
This animosity tormenting me
Devouring my very soul.
Wanting to take over.
It whispers in my ear
Filling me with dread.
Clutching my shoulders
Pushing me over the edge.
This Shadow was born
In Darkness
It lives in Darkness.
This Shadow I fear.
This Shadow is Me ...=(
My Destiny Always Deceives Me...
The ultimate pain of solitude and silence
Broken by the sounds of whimpering
Blood is everywhere
Spelling out the horror of what happened
Telling no lies
And giving no explanation
Fear overwhelms the victim
Who's sitting in the corner
The blade lays on the floor
Covered in red liquid
The victim is dying
But she's enjoying every second ...
Broken by the sounds of whimpering
Blood is everywhere
Spelling out the horror of what happened
Telling no lies
And giving no explanation
Fear overwhelms the victim
Who's sitting in the corner
The blade lays on the floor
Covered in red liquid
The victim is dying
But she's enjoying every second ...
As Long As Our Memories Exist...
As Long As You Love Me
I'll be your best friend
I'll be your companion
best friend till the end
As long as you love me
As long as you stay
I'll do anything for you
Anyplace, any day
I'll bring you the sunlight
I'll comfort your tears
I'll fight all my life
To chase all your fears
As long as forever
My love will be ture
forever is perfect
If im loving you...
I'll be your best friend
I'll be your companion
best friend till the end
As long as you love me
As long as you stay
I'll do anything for you
Anyplace, any day
I'll bring you the sunlight
I'll comfort your tears
I'll fight all my life
To chase all your fears
As long as forever
My love will be ture
forever is perfect
If im loving you...
I Write My Own Destiny...
I know that you're my destiny
because i know this is real
and i know that you love me
because you show how you feel
I know that you're my destiny
and that we were meant to be
because i know that your love
is all i seem to need
I know that you're my destiny
and how i feel deep down is sincere
because when i'm with you i'm complete
and I always want you near
I know that you're my destiny
because you sweep me off my feet
and your touch is so tender
it makes my heart skip a beat
I know that you're my destiny
and i love the sweet things you do
but babe, all-n-all
i really love you ...
because i know this is real
and i know that you love me
because you show how you feel
I know that you're my destiny
and that we were meant to be
because i know that your love
is all i seem to need
I know that you're my destiny
and how i feel deep down is sincere
because when i'm with you i'm complete
and I always want you near
I know that you're my destiny
because you sweep me off my feet
and your touch is so tender
it makes my heart skip a beat
I know that you're my destiny
and i love the sweet things you do
but babe, all-n-all
i really love you ...
One Day You'll Miss My Presence...
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Upon my pillowcase,
Soaked with salty tears
Is perched a diary,
Filled with forgotten fears
Alongside the terrors
Ring a bell of gold
Inside a marble tower
My story will unfold
Pale stars trail behind
A long forgotton path
Memories are erased
And unto me is wrath
The room echos now
with the haunting voice of me
Calling from the diary
Reaching into night to see
A smudged world
where without my sorrow
Without my love
Life sings bitter and hollow ...
Soaked with salty tears
Is perched a diary,
Filled with forgotten fears
Alongside the terrors
Ring a bell of gold
Inside a marble tower
My story will unfold
Pale stars trail behind
A long forgotton path
Memories are erased
And unto me is wrath
The room echos now
with the haunting voice of me
Calling from the diary
Reaching into night to see
A smudged world
where without my sorrow
Without my love
Life sings bitter and hollow ...
I Want My Days Back...
There were days where I wanted you back, but I knew and always will
Even the best of memories of then fall through...
Because your gone
and I did nothing wrong.
I loved you,
I cared,
you still did what I feared
left, without explanation
I still
to this day,
don't know why...
Thinking without you
I'll forever cry
You were the only one
I've ever loved
Other guys that came along
meant nothing, I hope you know.
You were my everything
wish you still were... but instead
I'm left with nothing ...
Even the best of memories of then fall through...
Because your gone
and I did nothing wrong.
I loved you,
I cared,
you still did what I feared
left, without explanation
I still
to this day,
don't know why...
Thinking without you
I'll forever cry
You were the only one
I've ever loved
Other guys that came along
meant nothing, I hope you know.
You were my everything
wish you still were... but instead
I'm left with nothing ...
Once Upon A Time...
Once upon a time..
..I loved the past
But now I've gone forward...
I've realized I cannot love the past while I'm in the present, so I let go...
I let go of those memories that held me captive for so long..
Those dreams I once knew that were brought to life by you,
Now are only there to help me fall asleep at night
I am going on by myself..
I am going forward into my future with hopes that my new dreams will someday come true just like you had done for me..
Once upon a time, in the past...
..I loved the past
But now I've gone forward...
I've realized I cannot love the past while I'm in the present, so I let go...
I let go of those memories that held me captive for so long..
Those dreams I once knew that were brought to life by you,
Now are only there to help me fall asleep at night
I am going on by myself..
I am going forward into my future with hopes that my new dreams will someday come true just like you had done for me..
Once upon a time, in the past...
Pain Of My Lonely Nights...
Watch as this tear falls into empty space
See it fall into life's nameless place
Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light
That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight
As it falls watch it, its color has changed
From blue to bright red, it has a wide range
There it goes all alone, it continues to fall
With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all
Wait, can you hear it? A sob has broke free
Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be
Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye
A wall of shear water, it's now time to cry
A shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul
The darkness of the night has taken its toll ...
See it fall into life's nameless place
Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light
That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight
As it falls watch it, its color has changed
From blue to bright red, it has a wide range
There it goes all alone, it continues to fall
With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all
Wait, can you hear it? A sob has broke free
Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be
Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye
A wall of shear water, it's now time to cry
A shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul
The darkness of the night has taken its toll ...
Don't Cry At My Funeral...
I'm going far away, to another place,
People are gloomy,
They bring flowers to adorn my grave,
All of their faces clammy,
With tears and perspiration,
Dressed in white,
I look from above and feel immensely sad.
How can my people do this to me?
How can they spoil my happiest moment?
I wonder indignantly,
I wanna run through the door,
And meet all the people I wanted to meet
All the people I was always fascinated with,
I wanna ask them about their thoughts and ideas,
How they feel about their life, after death..
Skate on the rings of Saturn,
Sink in deep oceans, never to return,
I wanna look over my near and dear,
Observe who really mourned me,
And who rejoiced my eternal sleep,
I wanna cry over others' pain,
Without being irritated by worried eyes,
I am moving to another world,
Much bigger than this one,
Much more beautiful and ..
One Last Thought, One Last Motion,One Last Heart Beat,I Breath One Last Breath My Eyes Are Closed as I leave With Death ...
People are gloomy,
They bring flowers to adorn my grave,
All of their faces clammy,
With tears and perspiration,
Dressed in white,
I look from above and feel immensely sad.
How can my people do this to me?
How can they spoil my happiest moment?
I wonder indignantly,
I wanna run through the door,
And meet all the people I wanted to meet
All the people I was always fascinated with,
I wanna ask them about their thoughts and ideas,
How they feel about their life, after death..
Skate on the rings of Saturn,
Sink in deep oceans, never to return,
I wanna look over my near and dear,
Observe who really mourned me,
And who rejoiced my eternal sleep,
I wanna cry over others' pain,
Without being irritated by worried eyes,
I am moving to another world,
Much bigger than this one,
Much more beautiful and ..
One Last Thought, One Last Motion,One Last Heart Beat,I Breath One Last Breath My Eyes Are Closed as I leave With Death ...
You & Me - The Precious Moments...
You mean the world to me
You are everything to me
Just to hold you close
To feel your loving embrace
Makes me smile and feel loved inside
You have my heart and shall keep it forever
You have the password to my soul
You are the missing piece of the puzzle that shall make me whole
I love you with all my heart
Words cannot describe how i feel
To be apart from you for just a short time
Tears away at me inside
But as soon as i see your beautiful face
And just have one bittersweet kiss
The pain inside me vanishes and is no more
I feel you are my one true love
My reason to live on
Without you I would break
Just shatter into pieces
And float away in the wind
You are the reason that i wake each day
So I hope and pray that you will stay...
You are everything to me
Just to hold you close
To feel your loving embrace
Makes me smile and feel loved inside
You have my heart and shall keep it forever
You have the password to my soul
You are the missing piece of the puzzle that shall make me whole
I love you with all my heart
Words cannot describe how i feel
To be apart from you for just a short time
Tears away at me inside
But as soon as i see your beautiful face
And just have one bittersweet kiss
The pain inside me vanishes and is no more
I feel you are my one true love
My reason to live on
Without you I would break
Just shatter into pieces
And float away in the wind
You are the reason that i wake each day
So I hope and pray that you will stay...
One Day You'll Also Love Me...
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Why do you hurt me?
Do you like seeing me cry?
How can you just walk away?
When you know I'm dying inside!
How can you drag me,
Through this heartache and all this pain?
You know everything about her,
But do you even know my name?
Do you know how much I love you?
Do you even really care?
How can you let me love you?
Why are you so unfair?
Why won't you let me move on?
Let me be happy once again?
You want me in your life I know,
But I want to be more than just your friend!
Baby, just let me go!
I don't even me a thing.
But I don't want you to let me go!
I love you... Can't you see...?
Do you like seeing me cry?
How can you just walk away?
When you know I'm dying inside!
How can you drag me,
Through this heartache and all this pain?
You know everything about her,
But do you even know my name?
Do you know how much I love you?
Do you even really care?
How can you let me love you?
Why are you so unfair?
Why won't you let me move on?
Let me be happy once again?
You want me in your life I know,
But I want to be more than just your friend!
Baby, just let me go!
I don't even me a thing.
But I don't want you to let me go!
I love you... Can't you see...?
A Painful Night Without You...
I touch you as I feel your head brushing your hair from your face
Gathering the emotions building inside of me
One thought of commitment one thought of faith
How much I love you how much I feel your pain
All the memories of our short togetherness
Lingers in my mind as I feel warmth inside
I kiss your forehead trying to make myself strong
For what a difficult time it seemed
After the brief pleasure of being with you all the time
I feel so lost to loose you right now
These were my thought what I had that time
How I had thought it would be so wrong
How it seems to be so right after all...
Gathering the emotions building inside of me
One thought of commitment one thought of faith
How much I love you how much I feel your pain
All the memories of our short togetherness
Lingers in my mind as I feel warmth inside
I kiss your forehead trying to make myself strong
For what a difficult time it seemed
After the brief pleasure of being with you all the time
I feel so lost to loose you right now
These were my thought what I had that time
How I had thought it would be so wrong
How it seems to be so right after all...
Why Me...?
Sitting against the wall,
Pressing hands to ears,
Blasting music,
Rocking back and forth,
Asking,
Why me,
Why me,
Why me?
Why can't I be with the one I love?
Why can I never be happy?
Why do I go through so much stress?
I just want to die at times.
I have good friends,
A few good choices,
They help me,
And I help them.
So why do I choose to ask these questions?
Why am I so unsure?
Am I not believing in my friends?
Or is it the depression...?
Pressing hands to ears,
Blasting music,
Rocking back and forth,
Asking,
Why me,
Why me,
Why me?
Why can't I be with the one I love?
Why can I never be happy?
Why do I go through so much stress?
I just want to die at times.
I have good friends,
A few good choices,
They help me,
And I help them.
So why do I choose to ask these questions?
Why am I so unsure?
Am I not believing in my friends?
Or is it the depression...?
True Love Lasts Forever...
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Love is an endless flow of passion
No one can feel it but you
No matter how many people say "I know how you feel"
They think they know but they have no idea
The wonders of falling in love with that special someone
The feeling you get when they tell you they love you
Once you've fallen in love you can't get back out
Like a ring that's too small for your finger
But you put it on anyway
It doesn't come off unless you break it
But if it's real silver it won't break
And if it's true love
It will never end...
No one can feel it but you
No matter how many people say "I know how you feel"
They think they know but they have no idea
The wonders of falling in love with that special someone
The feeling you get when they tell you they love you
Once you've fallen in love you can't get back out
Like a ring that's too small for your finger
But you put it on anyway
It doesn't come off unless you break it
But if it's real silver it won't break
And if it's true love
It will never end...
We Loved To Create Memories...
Your memories still haunt me
For i'm still not over you
It's no easy to forget
For it used to be so true
These memories are my hope now
Yes they are my reason
They push me forward in my life
In any kind of season
And when i feel all betrayed
I go back to the times
When everything was so well
As the early sunrise
When joy moved to my heart
Like willing to stay
But before i realized
You were walking away
Your memories still haunt me
For i cant get over you
And i want no one else
It'll never get that true ...
For i'm still not over you
It's no easy to forget
For it used to be so true
These memories are my hope now
Yes they are my reason
They push me forward in my life
In any kind of season
And when i feel all betrayed
I go back to the times
When everything was so well
As the early sunrise
When joy moved to my heart
Like willing to stay
But before i realized
You were walking away
Your memories still haunt me
For i cant get over you
And i want no one else
It'll never get that true ...
My Search Is Over...
I never expected to find
The ideal love I left behind
For it’s every girl’s fantasy
To meet the man with right mind
Taking life as given to me
Thinking the love given is the best
Helas! Deep inside me
The love I crave still rests
Exploded when unnoticed
Brings non-stop tears to my joy
Having found the bearer of it
Finally my love isn’t a toy
As alive as the red sun
Chilling like the cold moon
The child inside me erupting
Like the volcano in a noon...
The ideal love I left behind
For it’s every girl’s fantasy
To meet the man with right mind
Taking life as given to me
Thinking the love given is the best
Helas! Deep inside me
The love I crave still rests
Exploded when unnoticed
Brings non-stop tears to my joy
Having found the bearer of it
Finally my love isn’t a toy
As alive as the red sun
Chilling like the cold moon
The child inside me erupting
Like the volcano in a noon...
Something Is There For Me...
Garland of roses surrounds my neck
With hidden thorns poking me like knife
While a false smile appear on my face
Showing dat I’m stepping into a new life
Unable to escape from this madding crowd
Mingling with an obliged desire
Trying to be everyone’s best friend
Surviving each day on the red fire!
Is my freedom snatched away?
Unknown to this childhood play
But when not a pair of arms hugging me
This, I realized the following day!
Someone pulling me from this madding crowd
Assuring me the love on earth
Easing away the sad tones on my face
There, I realized the value of this birth !
With hidden thorns poking me like knife
While a false smile appear on my face
Showing dat I’m stepping into a new life
Unable to escape from this madding crowd
Mingling with an obliged desire
Trying to be everyone’s best friend
Surviving each day on the red fire!
Is my freedom snatched away?
Unknown to this childhood play
But when not a pair of arms hugging me
This, I realized the following day!
Someone pulling me from this madding crowd
Assuring me the love on earth
Easing away the sad tones on my face
There, I realized the value of this birth !
A Bliss...
When the sky darkens
And the wind getting wild
Brushing the leaves from the trees
Along with my feelings of a child.
Emotionally I’m captured
And handcuffed by my fantasy
Always immersed in ur thots
Not forgetting them easily
In pain there’s a joy
Loving u seems to me a bliss
Worsened the hurt I have
Far from u is what I miss
With no regrets any day
Enticing every moment it jumps
For my search is over
Final destination has come !
And the wind getting wild
Brushing the leaves from the trees
Along with my feelings of a child.
Emotionally I’m captured
And handcuffed by my fantasy
Always immersed in ur thots
Not forgetting them easily
In pain there’s a joy
Loving u seems to me a bliss
Worsened the hurt I have
Far from u is what I miss
With no regrets any day
Enticing every moment it jumps
For my search is over
Final destination has come !
What Have I Done...?
After so many months
Tho’ knowing me inside out
Blames & accuses bombarding me
Chasing me all the way.
Shocked after revealing the truth
Embarrassing me crimson red
Feeling like a worn out feather
Flying in the mid summer’s day.
Have I stooped so low?
To the eyes of my beloved
Not worth even a smile
Like a puppet in the show!
Darling! What have I done?
Is loving you a crime?
Wanting to hug u to my bossom
Wanting you in the long run !!!
Tho’ knowing me inside out
Blames & accuses bombarding me
Chasing me all the way.
Shocked after revealing the truth
Embarrassing me crimson red
Feeling like a worn out feather
Flying in the mid summer’s day.
Have I stooped so low?
To the eyes of my beloved
Not worth even a smile
Like a puppet in the show!
Darling! What have I done?
Is loving you a crime?
Wanting to hug u to my bossom
Wanting you in the long run !!!
Come Back...
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Where have u gone ?
My soul is torn
Leaving me on the lurch
My heart is worn.
Have u concluded?
Ur love for me is dead
Have u decided?
It was hanging on a thread
Oh please come back
Take me wid u
Can’t bear this stab
My world is blue
Should I die crying?
Not knowing how u feel
Should I die pining?
Not knowing what is real !!!
My soul is torn
Leaving me on the lurch
My heart is worn.
Have u concluded?
Ur love for me is dead
Have u decided?
It was hanging on a thread
Oh please come back
Take me wid u
Can’t bear this stab
My world is blue
Should I die crying?
Not knowing how u feel
Should I die pining?
Not knowing what is real !!!
Reason Of Loving You...
Don’t have a reason
How much ever i try
My heart follows you
Even if u make it cry
For solely of wanting you
To shriek you are mine
Although you shoo me away
I can only blame it on time
How tough is this bond
When love makes it worse
No matter if I lose
Don’t call it a curse.
I keep wondering how it could be
When all I do is dying
Still I want to embrace it
Knowing your love makes me flying!
How much ever i try
My heart follows you
Even if u make it cry
For solely of wanting you
To shriek you are mine
Although you shoo me away
I can only blame it on time
How tough is this bond
When love makes it worse
No matter if I lose
Don’t call it a curse.
I keep wondering how it could be
When all I do is dying
Still I want to embrace it
Knowing your love makes me flying!
Blessed With Life...
Desperate to happily survive
Conquering the death within
Lonely dark accompanying me
Makes my being hard to live-in
Carrying my lifeless soul
Paying no heed to what u say
Visualising my ambition
That I fear had gone astray
In search of a lively soul
To acknowledge my mind
Dying for a shining hope
Striving that I will find
Transforming to a second phase
Alluring from dark to light
An unexplained excitement
That will make my future bright...
Conquering the death within
Lonely dark accompanying me
Makes my being hard to live-in
Carrying my lifeless soul
Paying no heed to what u say
Visualising my ambition
That I fear had gone astray
In search of a lively soul
To acknowledge my mind
Dying for a shining hope
Striving that I will find
Transforming to a second phase
Alluring from dark to light
An unexplained excitement
That will make my future bright...
It's All About You...
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I’ve never told you,
How scared I am of the dark.
I’ve never told you,
How much I care for you.
But you know, don’t you, Angel??
You know everything..
My Angel . . .
Don’t leave me alone in crowds..
I’ll lose my way back to you.
Don’t sent me to place far away..
Where you won’t even remember me.
Am I so bad, Angel??
Am I so bad?
At times, the clouds swing me,
Too high in the air and My eyes search for you…
Hoping you’ll come and hold me safe.
I don’t tell anyone.
But I get petrified I don’t let it showBut my heart sinks.
You know everything, don’t you Angel??
You know everything..
My Angel . . .
How scared I am of the dark.
I’ve never told you,
How much I care for you.
But you know, don’t you, Angel??
You know everything..
My Angel . . .
Don’t leave me alone in crowds..
I’ll lose my way back to you.
Don’t sent me to place far away..
Where you won’t even remember me.
Am I so bad, Angel??
Am I so bad?
At times, the clouds swing me,
Too high in the air and My eyes search for you…
Hoping you’ll come and hold me safe.
I don’t tell anyone.
But I get petrified I don’t let it showBut my heart sinks.
You know everything, don’t you Angel??
You know everything..
My Angel . . .
Let Me Be Happy Once Again...
Time spent with you fills me with sheer happiness,
I know together we will never be ,
And this does leave me in sadness,
When I see your smile ,I can't help but smile too,
You make me feel so special ,
When you look at me the way you do,
Your the one who makes me laugh,
Never am i down when your around..
You say the sweetest of things,hearing your voice is like a heavenly sound,
You make me so very happy ,but at the same time I still cry,
I cry because we will never be One,
So to stop loving you I have to try ...
I know together we will never be ,
And this does leave me in sadness,
When I see your smile ,I can't help but smile too,
You make me feel so special ,
When you look at me the way you do,
Your the one who makes me laugh,
Never am i down when your around..
You say the sweetest of things,hearing your voice is like a heavenly sound,
You make me so very happy ,but at the same time I still cry,
I cry because we will never be One,
So to stop loving you I have to try ...
If Only You Were Ever There...
Seems to be the foulest on Earth
Yet the sun skims the sky
In shadows I dwell, bound in my chains
In the silken divine, but darkened depths
Kept on descending; I don't know where I've been
How am I to know? It was too dark to see
An angel could save me
Bring me back from this despair
But there was never one there
Reached the bottom of the pit
Consumed in those brisk, black waters
Caught from each rainy afternoon
So few remembered in those chasms
So many were there, so many
Deceased lie in regiments cascading to the ground
So solemn are their vows before they reach the final stair
You're going up now? What could ever be up there?
We are standing in tomorrow's murky past
Come and laugh, Let's all laugh
Stand alone, all together now
Kept on descending and I don't know where I've been
How could I have known? It was too dark to see.
Can you save me from this overwhelming despair?
If only you were ever there ...
Yet the sun skims the sky
In shadows I dwell, bound in my chains
In the silken divine, but darkened depths
Kept on descending; I don't know where I've been
How am I to know? It was too dark to see
An angel could save me
Bring me back from this despair
But there was never one there
Reached the bottom of the pit
Consumed in those brisk, black waters
Caught from each rainy afternoon
So few remembered in those chasms
So many were there, so many
Deceased lie in regiments cascading to the ground
So solemn are their vows before they reach the final stair
You're going up now? What could ever be up there?
We are standing in tomorrow's murky past
Come and laugh, Let's all laugh
Stand alone, all together now
Kept on descending and I don't know where I've been
How could I have known? It was too dark to see.
Can you save me from this overwhelming despair?
If only you were ever there ...
I Am Sorry For Everything I Did...
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I'm sorry for all the thing I've said,
And for the times I've done somthing to hurt you,
My feelings were all I cared about
Our friendship now totally changed
Really, I wish I could take it all back,
Roads now forked in opposite directions
Your trust I have lost,
Still Few words i have to speak out,
I am Sorry for All i Did ...
And for the times I've done somthing to hurt you,
My feelings were all I cared about
Our friendship now totally changed
Really, I wish I could take it all back,
Roads now forked in opposite directions
Your trust I have lost,
Still Few words i have to speak out,
I am Sorry for All i Did ...
Can You Bring Me Back To Life...?
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If only you could see the tears
In the world you left behind..
If only you could heal my heart
Just one more time..
Even when I close my eyes
There is an image of your face..
Once again I come to realize
I'll have to live to make you live..
But I will give my life away
If you don't wish me to smile..
Because my heart keeps asking you
What on earth will you do about me, love..
What will you do..
To bring me back to live..
What will you do..
Except coming to me..
What will you do..
You have no choice left
As I have no hope left ...
In the world you left behind..
If only you could heal my heart
Just one more time..
Even when I close my eyes
There is an image of your face..
Once again I come to realize
I'll have to live to make you live..
But I will give my life away
If you don't wish me to smile..
Because my heart keeps asking you
What on earth will you do about me, love..
What will you do..
To bring me back to live..
What will you do..
Except coming to me..
What will you do..
You have no choice left
As I have no hope left ...
You Said You'll Always Be There...
The day i met you,
That really fun day,
When i seen you in the mirror,
I thought that you were the one,
But i guess i was wrong,
You hurt me,
You killed me inside,
I don't no how but you did,
You cheated,
You even lied to my face,
When you were alone,
I was always there,
But when i needed you,
You were never there,
I loved you so much,
but did you love me,
It hurts to look at you now,
I cant even look you in the eye,
You just didn't understand,
That you meant so much to me ...
That really fun day,
When i seen you in the mirror,
I thought that you were the one,
But i guess i was wrong,
You hurt me,
You killed me inside,
I don't no how but you did,
You cheated,
You even lied to my face,
When you were alone,
I was always there,
But when i needed you,
You were never there,
I loved you so much,
but did you love me,
It hurts to look at you now,
I cant even look you in the eye,
You just didn't understand,
That you meant so much to me ...
Why Can't You See Me Crying...?
Watching you go is slowly killing me inside
To see the pain you suffer, it just isn't right
I find myself crying though you're still here.
One day you won't be, and that's my greatest fear.
So I soak up the moments I still have with you.
And regret the ones I lost when I had better things to do.
I know there are things I can never make up for,
And still somewhere inside you loved me all the more
This only makes it harder to accept that you'll be gone.
How am I supposed to get up and keep moving on?
You've been here my entire life in many memories.
One day I'll make new ones and you won't be with me.
When I have a question, where do I run too?
For all of these years, that person's been you.
When I have a fear, who will chase it away?
I'm shrinking by the minute, dying by the day.
How many I love you's can I fit in before you go?
There will never be enough, and sadly this I know.
For the sake of my heart and the thoughts in my mind,
I'll say I love you, one final time...
To see the pain you suffer, it just isn't right
I find myself crying though you're still here.
One day you won't be, and that's my greatest fear.
So I soak up the moments I still have with you.
And regret the ones I lost when I had better things to do.
I know there are things I can never make up for,
And still somewhere inside you loved me all the more
This only makes it harder to accept that you'll be gone.
How am I supposed to get up and keep moving on?
You've been here my entire life in many memories.
One day I'll make new ones and you won't be with me.
When I have a question, where do I run too?
For all of these years, that person's been you.
When I have a fear, who will chase it away?
I'm shrinking by the minute, dying by the day.
How many I love you's can I fit in before you go?
There will never be enough, and sadly this I know.
For the sake of my heart and the thoughts in my mind,
I'll say I love you, one final time...
I Want To Quit This Mean World...
The whole world is fake
The faces around us
We all seem to hate
We live a lie
Up until the day we die..
Trying to be someone were not
Not being ourselves
No matter what
All living are lives
As a sharade
Letting our true selves fade and fade..
Why cant we all be real
Tell people how we truly feel
It seems as though
This is how its always gonna be
Not having a true definition of the word Me,
Just simply acting to make ourselves look good
Not being who we are
Like we should ...
The faces around us
We all seem to hate
We live a lie
Up until the day we die..
Trying to be someone were not
Not being ourselves
No matter what
All living are lives
As a sharade
Letting our true selves fade and fade..
Why cant we all be real
Tell people how we truly feel
It seems as though
This is how its always gonna be
Not having a true definition of the word Me,
Just simply acting to make ourselves look good
Not being who we are
Like we should ...
Loving Hearts Miles Apart...
There are many miles between us,
But our hearts see not the distance.
Drawing our love even closer,
On this my heart it is insistent.
When we talk my heart sings,
You'll never know the happiness it brings.
Just to hear a word from you,
Keeps my heart from being blue.
I love you truly, yes I do.
I forever want to be with you.
For now I'll settle for the phone,
But know it's in your dreams that I belong
Longing for the day we greet,
Two loving hearts will then get to meet.
Never more to be apart,
Knowing it was long distance we got our start...
But our hearts see not the distance.
Drawing our love even closer,
On this my heart it is insistent.
When we talk my heart sings,
You'll never know the happiness it brings.
Just to hear a word from you,
Keeps my heart from being blue.
I love you truly, yes I do.
I forever want to be with you.
For now I'll settle for the phone,
But know it's in your dreams that I belong
Longing for the day we greet,
Two loving hearts will then get to meet.
Never more to be apart,
Knowing it was long distance we got our start...
My Heart Believes In You...
I kept my head up high,
and then you came my way.
I have been hurt so many times.
My heart filled with so much pain.
but now that pain has gone away.
For I have found a place I want to be.
This place I see is with thee.
For in your arms I have felt and seen,
a wonderful feeling that I cannot believe.
A safe haven in your arms just for me.
Now I give my heart to thee.
For my heart believes in you...
and then you came my way.
I have been hurt so many times.
My heart filled with so much pain.
but now that pain has gone away.
For I have found a place I want to be.
This place I see is with thee.
For in your arms I have felt and seen,
a wonderful feeling that I cannot believe.
A safe haven in your arms just for me.
Now I give my heart to thee.
For my heart believes in you...
Can I Love You Anymore...?
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I’m tired of pretending you’re gonna walk through,
Maybe that’s what keeps me strong when I’m falling,
Just because I know i’ll never meet someone like you,
Standing, Running, Crying, Screaming and Crawling.
I wish when I said it it would always come true,
Although i’m still waiting for that something to come,
So peace will comfort me and I will forget to love you,
But I needed you most; not just them or anyone.
No more candles around my bed just because I’m sad,
No more encouragement to be my very best,
No more happy, smiley faces just because i’m mad,
No more holding me or anything at all I guess.
Let me make one last mistake just to let it all show,
You can cover you’re eyes; but don’t walk out the door,
Have to tell you something because I can’t let you go,
Tell me how to pretend; So I don’t love you anymore...
Memories Play A Confusing Role...
You left me not too long ago
And yet it seems like forever,
I reminisce the day you left all this time
Because I was right there beside you..
I can't seem to get over the feelings I had,
At that very moment I felt so alone,
It grew cold in the room
That I lost all feelings and sense..
All I had was pure silence and disbelief,
I saw people moving towards you all around me
And yet I couldn't move a step towards you,
I couldn't distinguish my emotions
Because I wasn't sure of them..
I felt soo much anger and sadness, but I couldn't cry
At that moment I wasn't sure what was wrong,
And now a year & a half later it all comes back to me
Every tear I held in falls, and now I can't seem to stop..
I've realized how much I missed you
And how much I've needed you here
But there is no way for me to reach out for your touch.
I feel so alone right now,
That I just wish you could take me with...
And yet it seems like forever,
I reminisce the day you left all this time
Because I was right there beside you..
I can't seem to get over the feelings I had,
At that very moment I felt so alone,
It grew cold in the room
That I lost all feelings and sense..
All I had was pure silence and disbelief,
I saw people moving towards you all around me
And yet I couldn't move a step towards you,
I couldn't distinguish my emotions
Because I wasn't sure of them..
I felt soo much anger and sadness, but I couldn't cry
At that moment I wasn't sure what was wrong,
And now a year & a half later it all comes back to me
Every tear I held in falls, and now I can't seem to stop..
I've realized how much I missed you
And how much I've needed you here
But there is no way for me to reach out for your touch.
I feel so alone right now,
That I just wish you could take me with...
I Don't Cry For The Past...
Even though u have your times
Times were u r negative
Times were u doubt
Times when u say stuff u don't mean to say
Don't cry
I will always be there for u
I may get mad
But not for long
I never can be mad at some1 as amazing as u
Don't cry
I'm sorry for getting upset with u
During those times
I will always be by your side
Don't cry
I need you like the wolf needs the moon to guide it threw the night
Without the moon
The wolf would be lost
Blind
No where to go
Don't cry
The moon may eclipse on the wolf
But the wolf will wait it out n stay strong
We may have our eclipse like the wolf
That eclipse only last for so long
Just remember when that moon comes back
I will be there waiting for u to make it full again
Don't cry... !
Times were u r negative
Times were u doubt
Times when u say stuff u don't mean to say
Don't cry
I will always be there for u
I may get mad
But not for long
I never can be mad at some1 as amazing as u
Don't cry
I'm sorry for getting upset with u
During those times
I will always be by your side
Don't cry
I need you like the wolf needs the moon to guide it threw the night
Without the moon
The wolf would be lost
Blind
No where to go
Don't cry
The moon may eclipse on the wolf
But the wolf will wait it out n stay strong
We may have our eclipse like the wolf
That eclipse only last for so long
Just remember when that moon comes back
I will be there waiting for u to make it full again
Don't cry... !
When You'll See How Much I Care...?
Never will I understand,
Why my love, denies my hand.
What pain, what suffering have you endured?
With my help, can you be cured?
My thoughts, my dreams, you re always there,
When will you see how much I care?
Such little time I ve spent with you,
Enough to know my love is true.
The further you drift away from me,
The more I feel I ll never be free.
Perhaps I should just let you go,
Your love maybe, I should not know?
My love and friendship is always here,
And if you should ever shed a tear,
My arms are here to hold you tight,
For I will always be your light...
Why my love, denies my hand.
What pain, what suffering have you endured?
With my help, can you be cured?
My thoughts, my dreams, you re always there,
When will you see how much I care?
Such little time I ve spent with you,
Enough to know my love is true.
The further you drift away from me,
The more I feel I ll never be free.
Perhaps I should just let you go,
Your love maybe, I should not know?
My love and friendship is always here,
And if you should ever shed a tear,
My arms are here to hold you tight,
For I will always be your light...
Silent Rays Of Hope...
I stood by the window
With good reasons to curse
For life was turning from bad to worse
I wondered how could anyone preserve his morality
When all around is disloyalty..
When people around you are all so corrupt
How could it not be your principle and values disrupt
I looked outside keeping aside my plight
When suddenly i saw a wonderful sight..
Far away on a small flower bed
Grew a little rose,so bright and red
The rose with thorns was completely surrounded
Yet in pleasant fragrance it fully abounded..
Beside there was a pond with weeds of every kind
In grew a lotus of colour rare to find
Surroundings too filthy,smell really awful
Yet the lotus bloomed,radiant and beautiful..
In an atmosphere conducive and fine
everything would glitter and shine
But living in hell and doom
Its really creditable to bloom..
Look at lotus,look at rose
Its allways the beauty,wherever it grows...
With good reasons to curse
For life was turning from bad to worse
I wondered how could anyone preserve his morality
When all around is disloyalty..
When people around you are all so corrupt
How could it not be your principle and values disrupt
I looked outside keeping aside my plight
When suddenly i saw a wonderful sight..
Far away on a small flower bed
Grew a little rose,so bright and red
The rose with thorns was completely surrounded
Yet in pleasant fragrance it fully abounded..
Beside there was a pond with weeds of every kind
In grew a lotus of colour rare to find
Surroundings too filthy,smell really awful
Yet the lotus bloomed,radiant and beautiful..
In an atmosphere conducive and fine
everything would glitter and shine
But living in hell and doom
Its really creditable to bloom..
Look at lotus,look at rose
Its allways the beauty,wherever it grows...
Love Me For A Reason...
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Don't love me for what I have,
Or the things that you think I'll receive..
Love me for who I am as a whole,
And the person that I'm struggling to be..
Don't love me for my money,
Because if you ask I will truly share..
Love me for being understanding and kind,
And for being a friend whose always there..
Don't love me because I house you,
Because I would do the same for a dog..
Love me because I have faith in you,
And for loving you most of all..
Love me for seeing the good in you,
And for helping you overcome the bad.
Don't love me because I cater to you,
And for giving you my very last..
Love me for the person I am truly,
On the inside and the out..
Don't love me because the words I love you,
Flows freely from my mouth...
Or the things that you think I'll receive..
Love me for who I am as a whole,
And the person that I'm struggling to be..
Don't love me for my money,
Because if you ask I will truly share..
Love me for being understanding and kind,
And for being a friend whose always there..
Don't love me because I house you,
Because I would do the same for a dog..
Love me because I have faith in you,
And for loving you most of all..
Love me for seeing the good in you,
And for helping you overcome the bad.
Don't love me because I cater to you,
And for giving you my very last..
Love me for the person I am truly,
On the inside and the out..
Don't love me because the words I love you,
Flows freely from my mouth...
To Whom shall i complain...?
Some say I am a betrayer betrayed,but if I have never betrayed anyone,and have just been betrayed in love why would you say this ?
Is it because after you hurt my heart and split it open that when I hated you I became a betrayer ?Or is it because I wont let anyone in because the pain hurts ?
Am I the betrayer full of hate for you?
It is true I hate you but there is a part of me that wont let you go.
I still hate you or how you hurt me,but I still love the way you were and how you would hold me in your arms.
Now I feel like I'm falling..
To Whom shall i complain...?
Is it because after you hurt my heart and split it open that when I hated you I became a betrayer ?Or is it because I wont let anyone in because the pain hurts ?
Am I the betrayer full of hate for you?
It is true I hate you but there is a part of me that wont let you go.
I still hate you or how you hurt me,but I still love the way you were and how you would hold me in your arms.
Now I feel like I'm falling..
To Whom shall i complain...?
You'll Never Understand Me...
This Is My Advanced Feeling
I'm feeling on top of the world!
This is my turn
to show the world who i am!
I am A human being!
This is my Advanced Feeling
And this who i Truely well are!
This is my feelings
and this is who i am
why cant you understand me
and take me!
This is my advanced feelings
why wont you let me
live theses
these are precious
this is me!
This is my world
Please drop In
Because that Is that
this is all i can be
And This Is My Advanced Feelings!
Please don't try and understand
Because you never will!
Theses are Mine ...
I'm feeling on top of the world!
This is my turn
to show the world who i am!
I am A human being!
This is my Advanced Feeling
And this who i Truely well are!
This is my feelings
and this is who i am
why cant you understand me
and take me!
This is my advanced feelings
why wont you let me
live theses
these are precious
this is me!
This is my world
Please drop In
Because that Is that
this is all i can be
And This Is My Advanced Feelings!
Please don't try and understand
Because you never will!
Theses are Mine ...
Words Cannot Describe How I Feel...!
Will I ever be the same again
Will I ever get past all these lies
Will I ever open my eyes
And see that you are nothing
Nothing but lies
Will I ever be able to cry again
Will I ever be able to love again
Will I ever be able to sing again
Will I ever be free again
Free of your lies
Free of your seduction
Free of your lips
Pressed against my unwilling lips...
Do you want to seduce me
Into doing what you may?
Nay, I say, I will not fall
I will not let you take over
While I lose it all
And when I am lieing on the floor
Screaming for air
Losing my mind
And crying out for help
You just stand there smiling
Do you enjoy my pain?
Will I ever get past all these lies
Will I ever open my eyes
And see that you are nothing
Nothing but lies
Will I ever be able to cry again
Will I ever be able to love again
Will I ever be able to sing again
Will I ever be free again
Free of your lies
Free of your seduction
Free of your lips
Pressed against my unwilling lips...
Do you want to seduce me
Into doing what you may?
Nay, I say, I will not fall
I will not let you take over
While I lose it all
And when I am lieing on the floor
Screaming for air
Losing my mind
And crying out for help
You just stand there smiling
Do you enjoy my pain?
My Silence Speaks A Lot...
The Silence In my Words,The Un-Asked Question Forces me to Move towards an Undesired Direction.
In Its Own Classic Gait,Life Moves,
Once blinded,thought There was no One To Lose.
Deprived of the feelings of happiness,I feel left alone in this Mess loneliness,Finding out love In You..
I Try,Unable to Smile,Unable to Cry.
In Its Own Classic Gait,Life Moves,
Once blinded,thought There was no One To Lose.
Deprived of the feelings of happiness,I feel left alone in this Mess loneliness,Finding out love In You..
I Try,Unable to Smile,Unable to Cry.
Leaving You...
My Love For You Never Gone,
My Heart Never Left To Beat For You'
Whenever I Saw You, My Pain Grow More & More'
When You Say All Over, My Heart Broked, My Soul Torned,
My Body Doesn,t Alow Me To Feel Anything,
Why You Did All This To Me. Why You Left Me
Why I Leaved You...!
My Heart Never Left To Beat For You'
Whenever I Saw You, My Pain Grow More & More'
When You Say All Over, My Heart Broked, My Soul Torned,
My Body Doesn,t Alow Me To Feel Anything,
Why You Did All This To Me. Why You Left Me
Why I Leaved You...!
My Innermost Feelings...!
When i sit to pen down my thoughts
I get confused where to start
With brain crushed to extract my emotions
And the pierced feelings like darts.
As speed my memories travel
Even before the ink in my pen dries
They reach my love destination
To open the lids of your eyes
Jerking you from my dreams
Makes me vibrate from here
Whatever happens to you
From inner soul i shudder with fear
Laying down myself to sleep
With eyes wet by tears
But happy my heart feels
Like in front of me u appear...!
I get confused where to start
With brain crushed to extract my emotions
And the pierced feelings like darts.
As speed my memories travel
Even before the ink in my pen dries
They reach my love destination
To open the lids of your eyes
Jerking you from my dreams
Makes me vibrate from here
Whatever happens to you
From inner soul i shudder with fear
Laying down myself to sleep
With eyes wet by tears
But happy my heart feels
Like in front of me u appear...!
The Joy Unfold...
Each time I think of u
My head turns towards the sky
Shining blue to my gaze
Seeing ur face above so high!
A smile blooms on my lips
With happiness comes unknown
Wondering why is this reflection
The reflection of this joy unfold
Do I know the reason?
Is it b’coz I miss u so?
For every cloud passing by
Brings me a message like spy
The message with ur memories
Ur laughter that lingers my ears
The love promised by u
Which lasts for many years...?
My head turns towards the sky
Shining blue to my gaze
Seeing ur face above so high!
A smile blooms on my lips
With happiness comes unknown
Wondering why is this reflection
The reflection of this joy unfold
Do I know the reason?
Is it b’coz I miss u so?
For every cloud passing by
Brings me a message like spy
The message with ur memories
Ur laughter that lingers my ears
The love promised by u
Which lasts for many years...?
